Psalm 23

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil, for you are with me;
your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

Everywhere I go, whether it's school or the mall or the supermarket, wherever, I find myself a little condescending to others. The reason why is that in my heart I know they don't fully understand how blessed and loved they are. I get upset and even hurt sometimes that they don't get it! There's more to life than what's around them. I wish they'd think a little. all I can do is pray. because I'm no superhuman...ha! I wish I could save a lot of lives and it may not be the whole world because that would be too much.

I'm coming off to be judgemental but who isn't? As much as possible: no bitterness or rebukeness towards others especially when they're my friends. but at the same time: no conformity to this world. so how can this be done? the answer if love. As Christians, we have to be slow to anger and quick to forgive. I understand that just because someone is christian doesn't mean they do all those things. that's where people start calling us hypocrites. that's only because they haven't fully matured in faith and in love... or maybe they just need to find themselves and dig a little deeper. This concept really needs to be reached: christianity is not about doing good things and not involving yourself in sin, it's about God. And because of Him, we want to live out our faith and do the good deeds. the good things we do come after... it's the effect, not the cause of our belief.

People might even shy away because they're "bad" people. ok I have to admit, I've done my share of what's considered "bad" and "unholy". I'm a sinner. no one is perfect but people have high expectations. There are people out there who are scared of God and don't want to be in the light because of guilt.

I've learned to admit my mistakes and move on and not dwell. for example, everytime I get a bad grade on a test or quiz... I get really mad/disappointed/discouraged. but you know what? I take it and just put more effort into it next time. I would be scared to admit my short comings because of other people making fun of me and embarassment. I was very insecure. That's why I took pride in the great things I did. To better myself and cover up the messups.

I am who I am.

I thank God for my life and everyone and I mean EVERYONE in it. I count my blessings and give all the glory back to Him. I thank Him for giving me the will power and understanding. I've witnessed things about myself that I thought would never happen and then I say, "wow". With his power and grace, I can do anything and everything.... I can do more that what I THINK I can do. isn't that amazing?