3 new blog posts in one day!?

What is this madness?!
The reason for this is that I wrote the previous 2 posts last night and saved it as drafts.

And this 3rd one is important for me to post because a lot of things happened today!
Today just made me think. of course, there's nothing new about that because I over-think. too much.

I gave an advice to a friend who was going through boy troubles. After giving that advice, I went over it in my head and thought, "I should take my own advice." Not only was I saying to her but I was also saying it for myself. It felt right to say that to my friend and I didn't feel confused for myself !

During chorale practice, my conductor said something very important that really struck me.
well she said more than "something"
it was important advice for me.

We're so young and it's important to enjoy being single (something I already know)
Enjoy being single, meaning, spend money and time for yourself instead of getting married and having to do everything for the family and kids. When you get married at an early age, you don't experience enjoying yourself. taking care of yourself.

I took that message and thought,
"I should really work on me. getting myself that career and finding myself first. I can't let someone hold me down. I can't wait for that person anymore. I have to be free for my own sake. That someone will come along later in life. Whatever time that may be... it could be sooner or later than I think. Whatever is God's timing. Whatever is in His will. His perfect plan."

yes, I have already thought about marriage.. I had the thought that "I want to marry him someday." But it sounded like I wanted to marry him in a few months instead of years. I've been getting too far ahead of myself this past few months. so much over-analyzing.

thank you so much for what you said Ms. J
it meant a lot when you shared. it made me realize that I am still young and such a kid.
I'm still emotional like a teenager... yet I've still grown since junior high/high school.
it affects me so much when it comes to love.
that's why I am very careful with not having a boyfriend yet. I take that so much to heart.

NBSB
No Boyfriend Since Birth
and never been kissed.

I really want to keep it that way until THE one comes along.
Until I know for sure that this is it.
Because I want to be able to give everything to that person
and not have anything more to give if I had boyfriends..
it wouldn't be fair to my future husband that I have other guys in the back of my mind...

...before even starting a new relationship, I think you really have to have no attachments or feelings to the previous guy(s). it simply isn't fair to the guy! I say this because I myself wouldn't want the guy to do the same... to think about other girls he's been with.

UGH. here I go, ranting about love life/relationships and whatnot.
this seems to be my favorite topic as well as for everyone here in the PI. haha
I know God has someone for me and He knows who he is...
I just gotta put faith and trust in Him! and pray pray PRAY!

OKAY! haha enough blogging for today.
toodle loo!