It's time that I...

…should learn to not be too nice. Truth be told, I believe to be too nice of a person… maybe even a pushover. I mean, I still have my moments where I lash out a little bit and give a harsh comment here and there but there’s this part of me that doesn’t want to get on someone’s bad side. I just don’t want drama or cause trouble that makes a person not like me very much. I guess I’m a people pleaser in some way. Depending on who the person is, especially those who have a strong personality and isn’t afraid to be politically incorrect, I turn out to be shy and really really nice.

Being here in the Philippines, I have to toughen up. I need to toughen up as in grow a backbone and learn to put my foot down, because someone could take advantage of me for that. I tried putting that thought aside and just be a good friend… asking and expecting nothing in return. So there will be no problems right?

But what’s bothering me is that this classmate of mine can be a little rude and she’s not even a friend to me.
I’ll face the truth: she’s using me. 

And I just notice the way she’s been behaving towards me… I’ll consider the fact that maybe it’s because I’m a FilAm who doesn’t speak and doesn’t completely understand that much tagalog.

There should be boundaries when you ask a person for favors and I think she’s asking just a little too much.
Not asking permission and just doing what she wants. 

I’ll speak my mind right now that that just tells me what kind of a person she is.
it tells me how you’re brought up at home and maybe you’ve gone through a lot with parents or something. I don’t know.

I’m glad I’m that kind of person who’s considerate of others’ personal space.
I don’t ask for too many favors… especially from people who I’m not particularly very close with.
it would make me feel uncomfortable and just not right for me.

I’m also glad that being here in the Philippines is teaching me to really stand up for myself and say no.
I probably have to lie a bit or something.

To Reader: my posts can be vague but if you understand what I’m saying and where I’m coming from without knowing the details, kudos to you:] 
I wonder who even reads my blog on a regular basis…