Spotlight

So you finally had your day in the sun.
it's fantastic.
it's thrilling
it's exhilerating
you've wanted this since who knows when
seems like yesterday you thought to yourself
"man, when will that be me?"
all eyes on you
the attention is all on you
it's amazing
it's indescribable
it's what i wanted

I used to be the girl who no one would look twice at. there was nothing special about me. i was hiding. i always had tears. i was so very much insecure. i had great fear. i didn't want attention and i wasn't very good at small talk. i wasn't smart. and i lived in my own world. NOW, things are different and for once i miss those days where no one noticed me. i miss mediocrity. that's kind of funny to say. Because now i have expectations and a reputation to uphold. I'm starting to become the person i've always wanted to be. to be great. to be smart. to be me. i love it don't get me wrong. but now im in the light. where people know my name and my face. maybe it's because now i'm a senior and there are younger ones who look up to me. well in general, underclassmen always look up to the upperclassmen in some way shape or form whether they admit it or not. it's true. i feel now that i have a standard to set. im starting to feel that i really rule the school. ok not the school but i actually make a difference in whatever i do. people notice. at first, i really didn't like it. but now im learning to embrace whatever life throws at me. good or bad. it'll only make me stronger. it really feels good to be noticed and maybe even favored.

and now i have a duty to set an example for others that will better myself and my future.
Thank God.
He's answered my prayer.