EXCITED!:]

wanna know why? my last winter concert of my high school life that's why!
and i'm oh so happy because i finally have a solo for winter concert where i have 41 back up singers. I love rhaps. tech rehearsal was fun fun fun. haha i actually love tech/dress rehearsals but not as much as i will love thursday and friday. they will be the best this week. and if you didn't know already: im the biggest choir nerd ever. and if there is someone out there who is a bigger choir nerd, that person is my best friend. so it would be greatly appreciated if you go watch especially me. because you know you do. so you see what i mean when i say im a choir nerd... THE choir nerd. especially when i'm making a whole blog about choir particularly about this week. and if you don't have money to buy tickets... i'll hook you up;] i have extras for friday. so no excuses! unless you have SATs, or whatnot. i'll understand. maybe... lol. justkidding.

SO! it's the first day of december. my oh my.
so yesterday after church... my heart was heavy. as in heavy, sad. i can't describe it... I felt internally sad as if something a part of me left me. I felt a little empty. not only that, but it lasted until this morning before i got ready for school! it wasn't the greatest feeling in the world and normally i feel great in the morning and ready for school and ready for anything that's in front of me to bring me down. but i didn't even want to get up this morning. i wish i knew why. but i think i do but i don't want to make it to be the reason because i don't even want that reason to make me feel like that the whole day because that's just the worst. as much as possible i don't want one bad part of my day to affect it as a whole. and i'm glad today wasn't like that. choir made me happy. maybe that's why i was a little sad... i couldn't wait for the end of the day to happen!:] haha. thank God for music and that I could sing everyday except wednesday because it's block but i still sing daily. even when i don't have choir. i still make it a routine for me to do. i wish i was like that for God. making time for some bible-reading and praying and just setting aside time for Him. it's not fair. if you look at it this way, i'm like making music my idol.

huh. i'm going to let that sink in a bit.