Why?

I cried while driving home from my mom's office with the song Angel by Sarah McLaughlin playing on the radio. Just the thought of your life ending, the thought of the cause of death. I barely had you for 3 months! What have I done to deserve this? Was it the times I haven't fed you, bathed you, or walked you? I've neglected you just like I have neglected TwoTwo. It's so sad and it just pains me that I just couldn't believe it. I had to ask my brother 3 to 4 times if you really were dead. At least I was able to see you... even though it brought me to tears. I was scared to even touch you. why did you even go near the jacuzzi? I wish we checked on you... realized what happened sooner. I don't know. Wishing and hoping doesn't bring me anywhere. I'm so so sorry that I didn't take good care of you. well-- I didn't pay a lot of attention like a good owner should. I'm glad I had the chance to walk you for the first time... and the last. I'll miss you barking late at night and in the wee small hours in the morning. You are so cute. I'll miss the way you walk and run around playing with Rex.. I'll miss the way you always come in the house and just lie on the carpet in the kitchen. I'll miss holding you in my arms. you were so light! I'm glad I had the opportunity of owning a pure breed pomeranian. Was there any way anyone of us could have prevented this? Lord knows. I probably don't deserve such a great and loyal dog. One dog is enough for this family that can't slow down sometimes.

yesterday, I don't know what time... my dog died:(
yes, it's the new dog that i received as a gift in september.
we only had the dog for over a month!
it's crazy... that means if we get another dog, I bet we'll only have him for less than a month.
it's sad.

goodbye pom pom