Something Special

When I look at myself, I really don't think I'm something special.
My best friends might beg to differ and my parents believe in me... I just have a hard time when it comes to my self esteem. I guess that's why I was such a cry baby in elementary school (even in junior high). It's really not easy for me to say I'm beautiful or even pretty. I have my moments but in the end sometimes I don't feel that way.

I ask myself nowadays, "what does he see in me?" I'm really nothing special. there are people who are prettier and are better than me. I'm really just someone in the crowd. I'm just waiting for him to see that. I'm waiting for him to lose interest... not that I don't want him to but I feel that day coming. he's going to see who I really am and he's going to move on to someone else.

I can't get my hopes too high because my heart might end up broken. that's why I always tell myself that it's not going to happen. some things are just too good to be true. and if it really is what it seems, it only lasts for so long.

I don't want it to end.
especially our friendship.
everything seems to happen so fast.
I just hope we're still friends throughout whatever happens
I pray to God nothing bad happens between us.

he's been on my mind lately
he's really something special