Is it a crime?

I couldn't help myself this morning. I just had to cry. She expects me to suck it up like a man and know that God is always with me. And that He'll provide.

Ok, you see a person crying what should be your first reaction?

well, the first thing she asks if I'm sick... and then asks why I'm crying.

That just made me cry even more. The reaction should have been to comfort me. It was so awkward! Doesn't she know that I'm only human with emotions? She couldn't give me a hug! She was standing 2 feet away from me praying... she was PRAYING standing 2 feet away from me. I expect that from someone else that doesn't show any compassion but from her? that's just amazing.

So I guess I'm not allowed to cry. I mean, I'm not even crying in public (if she sees me crying in public she gets upset) sure, I'd feel embarrassed but it's ok to show vulnerability sometimes.

i'm frustrated. sad. hurt. mad.