1:01 AM

I couldn't believe my ears, and after hearing what you said, I'm still in disbelief. I know you have good intentions, but I can see that you're not true to yourself. I guess that's how it is when you have many different friends. It really bugs me.

But then who am I to say such things when I fall into that? You see right through me that I wasn't myself the other day. Or at least that's how I interpreted what you said to me. As a friend, I still love you and as a friend, I won't judge you. It's not even in my position to judge you anyway. I've said things behind your back that may hurt you but it's the truth.

You've confused me. I might have also given you the wrong impression, but it's not what you think it is. or maybe it's not what I think it is.

I think it's a good thing that you're away for the time being because I don't think we would have been friends if you stayed. The people that you hang around with would've hindered your growth spiritually and you wouldn't want to hang with me. I guess I'm just being a little pessimistic.

Although in the beginning I told you not to go, you followed your heart and went for it. Right now, I think it was a good idea that you left. You still got some more growing up to do even though you said you're "mature now."

Your Friend,

Rachel