LIFE

High School has taught me subjects that I'll rarely use for the rest of my life, except for math and english. As for science, foreign language, and possibly physical education, the subjects really hasn't equipped me for the world... the "real world". Sure, maybe public high schools are suppose to teach a variety of subjects to open doors of opportunity and discover our passions to what we want to do in life. A friend once told me that high school is a waste of time. I'm beginning to think that it is. A good number of people have not the slightest idea what they want to be when they grow up. Some people are wasting time. They've wasted high school and will continue to waste college especially money. Well, to a certain degree waste education. High School hasn't taught us the basic necessities to survive the jungle of what we call the "real world". I guess it's the job of the parents and inspirational teachers. They expect us to figure it out on our own.


I want to know NOW. I'm currently struggling with all this financial aid and loans stuff. My dad is constantly reminding me the realities of life. And everytime I have to deal with this, I get upset and really worried, as if there's nothing I can do to solve the problem. I cry everytime I fail myself. Everytime I'm reminded of the realities of the world, let alone college, I get scared that I'll never be able to handle it. I'm suppose to "be on top of it" and know what's coming and be able to fulfill that requirement. Last minute responsibilities is my greatest skill. I happen to have mastered it considering how many times I've failed to do something. It seems like I can never do anything right. You see, why can't High Schools teach the things that I'm learning about now? Well, at least my high school hasn't been that informative about applying for loans and what to expect for college and living on your own (well hypothetically living on your own without parents help).

I'm sick and tired of being naive, useless, and uninformative. At the very same time, I don't want to grow up at all. I want to go to Neverland and fly with Peter. I want to forever remain the little kid.