This made me cry

P.S. They say time heals all wound. Well, that night when a wound opened up in my lip, another wound healed my heart. For thirteen years that wound was open and bleeding with anger, bitterness and frustration. Because of time and your kindness it has now healed.

first of all I'd like to say that God is amazing. A miracle just happened. God was working through the man I'd like to call my father. My prayers have finally been answered. PTL! this is really a big step and even though he's not saved yet, it still makes all the difference to me. My dad is officially a different person and I saw that from the moment he came into my house and greeted my mom and stepdad. I felt a different vibe. At first I just overlooked it until the next day when he was going to eat out with me and my brother to applebee's, he asked where were my mom and uncle RG. and i said "why?". and he said he wanted them to eat with us too. I couldn't believe what i was hearing. he wanted them to eat with us!??! His heart made a complete 180. when he started emailing me he asked for my mom and stepdad's numbers. and then just tonight he emailed my mom wishing her a happy birthday. i don't even remember the last time he ever EVER greeted her a happy birthday. God is good. and then at the end of his email that was when i started crying. and my mom started crying :] I never knew he had words like that! what vocabulary and grammar! haha. that just goes to show how much i know my dad. not that much. but i learned he doesnt express his feelings a lot unlike my mom. but he's good at expressing himself through words (just like me!). i can express myself verbally but not as well as on paper or in writing. hence this blog! I thank God for timing. i think it was the perfect time. it's after graduation right before i go to college. it's not when I get married and he's old and had been bitter his whole life. it's not when he's on his death bed. perfect excellent timing.

i forgot to mention...

so on the day after graduation and after our dinner my dad wanted to use my laptop to mapquest something and confirm his flight back to san jose. and my front porch light wasn't on because the lightbulb went out. so my dad for some reason was rushing back inside the house (and there were 3 steps before you reach the door) and he tripped over the first or second step and fell and cut his lip. it was really bad. i was terrified and scared for his life (even though it was a cut lip but still!)(my stepdad wanted to call 911)(there was the ambulance and the firetruck and our neighbors were watching)

my dad was able to bond with my parents going to the hospital and going from the hospital to my auntie's apartment in Long Beach. God was working in him because my dad was touched by what they did for him. they went out of their way to bring him to the hospital to make sure he's ok. wow. i could cry right now. haha but i won't.

for the first time in a long long LONG time, i want to say that i truly love my dad.

wow i'm a horrible person. i forgot to greet my dad happy father's day - -x

oh super