So this Friday

I'm scared for Friday
so you know how I got early acceptance into APU? (Azusa Pacific University for those of you who only know of the big schools out there) well it doesn't stop there. See, in order to get into the music department, i must audition. i can't just waltz my way in. it's not that easy. and again, it's this Friday. I'm out of my mind terrified. I still haven't gotten the german down for one of my art songs. so a few weeks ago, my vocal teacher told me I "might not make it". or "i'm no where near making it" something like that. and that kind of stuck to me until i met up with her again this past saturday when she said that "it's do-able". I still believed what she said to me a few weeks ago. i was still in doubt. i said that i don't think i can get the german down. but she said that it was my call. she said if you think you can't do it, then cancel it. she was kind of neutral at that point.

after i was done and started walking home, i burst into tears. i was crying my eyes out. in my head the question kept popping up, "what will i do if i don't make it into the music program??" what will i do for the first two semesters!? sure i could audition again for my sophomore year but what about my freshman year. i want to be a music major. i really do. and i believe that's where God wants me to be.

but i guess if God wants me to be a music major, why would i worry?

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