I just realized

today after school was the last musical rehearsal = o
it really hasn't hit me yet that i'll be missing all those long hours of rehearsals and hearing ms. karr's oh so lovely voice. yeah no. i'll miss all the new friends i've made when all of this is over. i want to say that i'm going to cry about it on saturday, our final performance. but i don't think i will. it won't hit me as hard as for the ones who's been in all the productions since forever. I'll miss dreading rehearsals. i'll miss stealing rides from other people. i'll miss not walking home after rehearsals just because it's wayy too dark. i'll miss being a nun ! :]]] haha. i'll miss watching the play over and over. i've already miss today! when we sped through the whole show and everyone messing around on stage. i'll miss singing with michelle. i'll miss hearing this one girl who sings off key all the time. no joke. thank goodness she doesn't throw me off. i'll miss my freshmans. i'll miss hearing tiffany/jin/elsa's lovely voice (but it won't be the last! we still have choir concerts) singing "how can love survive". i'll be missing out on the cast party. yeah i'm not going. i'll miss all the glorious food i've been stuffing my face with. oh those horrible horrible weeks of FOOD! thank you 24 hour fitness* i'll miss marianne's super loud awesome voice. i've really sacrificed a lot of my time for this. i had to give up other things that were really important in order to just sit around most of the time because i have a small part. i'll miss everyone. even all the people i don't even talk to. i'll miss every single person and everything about this experience. i'll miss the orchestra! a musical wouldn't be a musical without the music would it? i'll miss all my nunniiieeess:] i'll miss my choir kids! yeah just kidding. we still have our choir concerts. i guess that's why i'm kinda not so bummed about this ending. but still. it's eventful to me. it's not the end though. oh shiz tomorrow is another night of SOM. and a certain SOMEONE coughrobertsoncough needs to buy his freaking ticket to freaking watch the freaking show. >:[ <-- this will be me monday morning if i don't see you there you jerk. you know what? i'll buy the darn ticket for you. i seriously will. i'll buy 2 if i have to! just so you can go with a friend. ok i don't have the money because i have to buy sadies tickets. but still! it means a lot to me if you be there goshdarnit!

24 hour fitness
just this week. monday afternoon to be exact. i've got membership! :DDD just from that first visit, that first walk in to that gym, i see 394875 kids from school. ok yeah i'm exaggerating but i saw so many people from school. and if you know me i'm not too crazy about seeing people from school. i'd like to see people at school, not outside of school, unless they're friends, then that's perfectly fine with me. but i don't like seeing people there because in my head i debate whether i should say hi to that person and then it kind of gets awkward for me and then i feel bad for not saying hi. yeah i could go on. so i've been going during this week's super latestart:] i'd wake up 5am in the morning and my mother and i would go to the gym and work out for an hour and a half. so for the past few days i've been sore around my shoulders and abs. so evertime i cough or sneeze my abs would hurt. lol. and when the musical is over and all done, it would be a lot easier to get into shape and tone my body. and then! i could freaking fit into my good jeans. sheesh i have about 4 pairs of jeans that really don't fit me anymore. :( my thighs are humungous i swear. thank you mommy for enrolling me into the gym! she's been saying that i need to go since i was 16 and it never happened. yay!

sudokus are my love
weight has been on my mind a lot lately
i'm beginning to lose sight of what's really important
march 27 and 28 are my scary days
sadies! :]
potato skins o how i love thee
yesterday was an accomplishment because i didn't buy anything from asb ^-^
until i bought potato skins today - -x
my abs hurt
Jesus, I need You and I pray for more of YOU in my life.

speaking of Jesus:] yesterday i've recently read this amazing post about having a "quiet time" with God. after reading that, it really sounds easy to just stop what you're doing, open up a bible, and just read His Word. well there's more to that. but still, it's easy as 1,2,3! lol there really shouldn't be an excuse to spending time with God. He puts a lot of situations and problems in your way in order to get your attention. we all wonder why this or that bad thing happens. so maybe it's because He's getting your attention and sometimes we don't realize that.

so i conclude with this:
“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.”- Galatians 5:22-23

read. digest. pray.
that's all it takes.