Loss

As I was reading a friend's poem on his wordpress, it really made me think of my older relatives on my mom's side. My mom lost her dad due to heart attack and her grandmother from old age. As for what effect it had on me... I didn't really experience that much pain because I wasn't close to any of them. First off, I never met my grandpa on my mom's side. He passed away when my mom was in college. I wish I had the chance to meet him because my mom says so many great things about him. And whenever she does talk about him, she starts tearing up. As for my great-grandmother... I had the privilege of meeting her in Baguio. I was around 9 years old when I remember meeting her. to be honest I was pretty intimidated because I know how strict she is. She has some chinese culture in her (she did marry a chinese man... which makes me part-chinese.. but I'd like to say that I'm just filipino by blood. I'll explain in another blog post.)

So anyway... I really didn't have any close connection with my great-grandmother. I wish I did but it was hard to really connect with an eighty something year old while I was nine years old. My mom loved her and it was hard for her to deal with the loss while she was here in the states when she passed away in the Philippines.

I know someday in my lifetime, I'm going to experience losing someone close to me. We hear so much about death almost every day.... whether it may be someone famous or a friend of a friend... it might affect us one way or another at a certain degree.

If I ever lose any of my closest friends or one of my parents... I'd probably cry my eyes out for days. I don't know. it hasn't happen to me yet. and I wouldn't want it to happen anytime soon.

Praise God for my friends and family who are alive and well