So there's this guy

yeah right. there is NO GUY i have my eye on... nada. or to be correct it's nadie. oh screw spanish. i thought i was done with it until my brother started taking it and i'm currently reading "Bless Me, Ultima" and some of the dialogue and words are spanish. oh dear. it will never escape me. you'd think by spanish 3 i should be at least have a decent conversation with somebody in spanish. it doesn't have to be really deep but easy spanish conversation. but not fluent.

it's funny how i can go on a tangent. that's why i can never write a good essay, i get off topic. i went from boys to spanish. eh could've been on a stranger, more irrelavent subject.

so this guy, not that i've been crushing on him, but i've been seeing what he's been up to lately, never really actually talk to him because we're not really good friends. we just drifted. yeah, i just check his myspace ^-^ haha stalker! and i pretty much read his blog and at times i feel that some of his blogs are kinda sorta about me. well before it was. and reading his blog today, it really felt as if it was for me. i could be wrong. he could be talking about some other person who cut him out of her life. that's a possibility. but i can't help to think it's about me. i wish perhaps things were different between us. that it could've been better. before, i wish i went back in time to change things too just as much as he would. but it won't change even if it really wasn't directed to me. my word here stands firm. maybe... just maybe in time we'll coincidently see each other and we can just patch things up and start over as friends. if it's meant to be. and if it was for me, he would know that i still read his blogs. i like reading them because most of the time they're poems/lyrics to his own songs that he wrote. i think i'm going to fall for a musician for my first boyfriend. haha i see it no other way. for sure my husband will have to be musically inclined whether he can sing or play an instrument or just loves music. it's a MUST. and he has to be milo ventimiglia. haha just kidding. he has to be jeremy sumpter (peter pan). yeah just kidding x2.

if i were to see him again, i would tell him sorry for the way i was with him. although we did get along after i left but for some reason it started again. it started as if we were never on friendly terms. whatever, i'll say it again. we'll be laughing it off. tell stories. and we'll be good friends and have one of those conversations. yes those intellectual conversations. maybe just maybe we'll see each other again. but until then, i wish him the best and i know his dreams will come to reality. he'll reach that goal. with enough effort and persistance and faith. i know he will. God has blessed him with such talent and he's using it. and he'll go even further. he'll go the distance.