I'll be blunt

I'm not pretty.
and I'm talking about the gorgeous kind of pretty. I have very little interest in make up and I don't carry lotion in my purse like most girls do (or should do?). Nor do I carry a small mirror... I don't check myself in the middle of the day in the classroom because I think it's kind of strange if I did. I know what's on my face and I'm sure there wouldn't be any unless there's something in my teeth. Then, I would run to the comfort room (restroom) to check. I like simple... I'm plain and simple! It's more obvious when I stand next to a girl who takes a guy's breath away. I don't stand out and I'm not one who likes a lot of attention. I can be UGLY and I'm not talking about appearance. I can be mean and say things that I don't mean because I would get so upset. Being such an emotional person, I say a lot of things that I would probably take back. I can be terribly shy which probably supports the fact that I don't like a great deal of attention. I have gross habits that are pretty embarrassing. I'm loud. I'm awkward and can not hold eye contact for too long or not at all. I'm different from all the other girls.

But you know what?
I am beautiful.
if you think about it, you don't hear a lot of girls and gals say this to themselves with the exception of Christina Aguilera's song if you're singing it. I embrace my natural beauty. I love it. And just think, if you don't love your face that's free of make up and wouldn't dare show it to the public, how can your friends and loved ones love you for who you really are? I would want my friends to love  me the way I love myself. I must first accept and love the way I am and never let other people take control of that. If I don't love myself, other people will start defining me. I look to what everyone likes for me instead of what I want for myself. And ULTIMATELY and most importantly, God created me in His own image and His image not only includes my physical features but my internal features as well. I'm beautiful because God Himself is beautiful.

this may sound funny but I'm glad I'm not that attractive looking. I don't want to attract unwanted boys, to tell you the truth. I would want that person to love my character and the things you don't really see until you actually get to know me. I don't want that person to lust over me. As quickly as it comes, it will surely go as it came. I am certain that my future husband will embrace my natural beauty and possibly even more than I do. He'll see more than what I see in myself. But he will be nowhere close to how much God can see. So if you remember that feeling of being adored... think about how much deeper it is when it's from God. He lavishes us with His love. It's amazing... words can not even begin to describe.

Thank You God for your beauty. It's everywhere that I go and I can't help but be in awe. I pray that when someone sees the beauty in me, that person will see You and will love you even more than me. One of my greatest heart's desire is for friends to see You in me. I am so undeserving yet you choose to shower your blessings in my life.

You call me beautiful. That feeling when I even hear someone tell me that I am beautiful is a great feeling. But to hear it from You, God. It doesn't compare.