Sunday

For consider your calling, brothers: not many of you were wise according to worldly standards, not many were powerful, not many were noble birth. But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong; God chose what is low and despised in the world, even things that are not to bring to nothing things that are, so that no human being might boast in the presence of God. And because of him you are in Christ Jesus, who became to us wisdom from God, righteousness and sanctification and redemption, so that, as it is written, “Let the one who boasts, boast in the Lord.”
                                                                                                                                                   1 Corinthians 1:26-31

I am a sinner.
I sometimes think I’m not worth it.
But because of Jesus, I’m worth more than all the riches in the world. He loves me and sometimes I forget that. Of course, I may not ever understand the depth of His love, but it’s what gives me strength and the courage to move forward. I’ve made mistakes I am not proud of and I’m sure everyone feels that way because everyone makes mistakes, big or small. We all sin and have fallen short. Why should I even compare myself to others when I should be looking up to God’s standards? Everyone’s not perfect yet I still look up to them. I want to be like them.

Lord, I want you to use me. Please, guide me in my walk with You. Open my eyes to opportunities and open my mind for more knowledge of You. Most importantly, open my heart to receive You for it has been elsewhere. My true love and happiness is You. Help me have that heart to know you more by reading Your word. I haven’t been consistent and I pray that changes today. Prepare for me a connect group that I will look for this Saturday at this new church I’m starting to attend. This will mark the first step into getting more involved in the church but not too involved because of school.

I have a friend from Northern California who would go to my church faithfully.
She really went out of her way to come to Friday youth nights and Sunday morning services… even time to hang out with me! She’s in the same course as I am, and it makes think… if she’s able to take on a course that requires so much of her time and still go to church, I can do it too.

It’s so different now that I am away from home… I have no obligation to go to church now. I’m not busy or stressed out on the weekends, it feels good. But at the same time, I miss it. I miss driving my church family for practice and just spending time with them. Being a part of worship… Seeing the same faces.

So here’s a chance for me to start anew! I will go to church not because my parents are leaders in the church. I want to be faithful and make time for God. I know this is one of the reasons why I am here in this country. I’m here not only to focus on myself in school but to really learn about God without moving around and being distracted.

And the journey begins.