Oh, the month of love

Love is such a funny thing.
I wanted to remind myself what God's love really means because honestly, I have forgotten what unconditional love meant. It was wiped away by the world's definition of love. I say "love" is such a funny thing as in the world's view of what love is all about. Recently, I have been SO confused. The reason? I was caught up with the butterflies and romance of love... and I was trying to figure out what I want. I didn't think about God.

I am so undeserving of His love
but He chose to send His Son to die for me.
that's love unconditional
He could have said, "I'll send my Son to die on the cross if you do this for me..."
oh what love!

Not only because it's the month of love that I have decided to remind myself about His amazing love, but because a certain someone has been in my heart lately-- actually for what seems like a long time. And one of the rules that I have set upon myself was to love that person second to God. I want my desire for God to be greater than my love for someone. And right now, I'm weak in that area. I am now 20 years old, yet I still have some more growing up to do.

Which is why I am stuck. and I don't know what to do :\