Is it strange?

I really like Ikea right now. it has been to my interest to look at furniture and living rooms.. bedrooms.. bathrooms. you name it. I like home decor and I want to learn how to put things together. I want to know what looks good and what doesn't. Every time I get my hands on a magazine that has anything to do with home living, I can't put it down! Is it weird? It's as if I'm ready to actually live on my own like a grown up... it got me thinking about being married with kids. I started thinking about what my future family home would be like. I'm serious as a heart attack. I'm getting ahead of myself lol

I think it's because I didn't have the freshman experience of dorming. If I could turn back time, I would totally convince my parents to let me dorm, despite the expenses. But I know what to do when I have a child someday. I would totally let them dorm and live on their own in college. haha I'm thinking so much into this but hey! it's the truth!

I haven't done this yet but I really really really want to do this:

I want to have an Ikea adventure. I want to walk around and look at everything.. the room models and all the kitchenware and furniture. just to have an idea of what I want when I get a place someday. right now, I want a simple look. but im not sure if i want the walls to be white or different bold colors in different rooms. I want a modern yet (a little) traditional look.

My heart is longing for a house. a home of my own. a family. yes, I said family. I still very much desire to meet my future boyfriend/husband/soul mate. Now... I want the family part. I not only want to grow old with that person but I want a family of my own. wow, did i just say that? yes i did. I must admit... I'm not ready for that kind of life yet. I'm 19 going on 20... I shouldn't really want or desire that kind of life until I'm 26 or 27 even though there are people around my age who are married and have a home. I just don't feel ready. I need some growing up to do.

tomorrow is friday and the first day of october! :] good night!