Today

I made a very special friend.

Her name is Amanda who is four and a half years old.

I love it when little kids get so bold and just start talking to you... there's no such thing as being intimidated and there's no barrier or anything! When they see someone they want to talk to and become friends with, they just do it and don't care. It really puts a big smile on my face :]

I kinda wish I was in kindergarten right now... I just wanna do over and relive that year. I want to do things a little differently. Sure, it was easy to just pick someone and instantly become their friends but from what I remember, I was the shy type. I wasn't bold like Amanda.

This is completely changing the topic... but recently-- I don't know if I'm the only one my age thinking about this-- I've been thinking about getting married. I've always thought about finding that special someone who I can spend the rest of my life with, sure. But now... it's become more frequent. I tell myself, that I don't want to be one of THOSE girls who get a ring by spring and drop out of college with an MRS degree. no sir-ee, that's not me. I want to be smart and finish college and become an independent woman... I want my life together first before I even start thinking about getting married and taking care of someone else. I want to set that desire aside and put my focus on God. with my focus on Him, I'll be able to focus on family, church, and school. well, school is where I have trouble putting my focus on.

My friends told me last week... that out of the 3 amigas, I was going to be the first to marry. Again, it's hard to believe that! it was easy for my friends to get into relationships, so it doesn't make sense that I'll be first.

Right now, in my love life, it's not going anywhere. I'm really old-fashioned like that.... and I say I am old-fashioned because I don't do the chasing. I wait because how else will I know that the guy really loves me ya know? I want to test how deep is his love for me... and most importantly God.

if you're reading this, please keep me in your prayers.

and I'll be sure to pray for you :]