Are some things better left unsaid?

1. Why won't you talk to me? or at least give the courtesy of responding my texts. What have I done to deserve this? Did I do something wrong to hurt you? It's driving me crazy and I wish you'd tell me. I wish we could talk and have lunch. I thought we were friends and now it seems like you're avoiding me. Please let me know what's going on. it's been 2 weeks, maybe even more. I still call you my friend, am I still your friend? It kind of hurts, I hope you know that.

2. it's impossible with you. we're so different yet I believe we have something. but we both know better than to rush anything and we know that it's not going to work out. or at least I think so. You're so confusing! You were going back and forth with what you told me that I don't even know what to think anymore. I want to forget you but my heart refuses. Sometimes it hurts to see you... especially with another girl. and I'll come out and say that I'm the jealous type. I want to talk to you about how it's impossible to even be friends without feelings getting in the way. To avoid any temptation you want to keep your distance... does that mean we can't hang out? we can't have a friendship? I don't ask if I can come over anymore because I'm afraid you'll give me the same answer. I can't stop thinking about you, I'm sure you know if you didn't. But I'm sure just like before, these feelings of infatuation and lust will soon leave me. My heart will move on eventually and so will yours. in less than a year, you will leave and I won't see you anymore. it hasn't become real to me yet. it won't hit me once you're out of my system. I do want you gone but at the same time I don't want you out of my life completely. I want to be with you but it's not right. it's impossible. it'll never happen. all I can do is dream.

3. you're such an amazing friend. you're straight up and don't sugar coat it because you tell it like it is. you honestly tell me how you really feel about things and yes there are times when I don't want to hear what you say because it leads to a disagreement. It's really God I tell you. We didn't even meet in a classroom setting or anything... it just happened! you're really a blessing in my life, I hope you know that.

4. I guess it's true that as you get older you start to appreciate your siblings more. I like having some quality time with you and you're really coming out of your shell! I know someday we won't see each other everyday like now but it will make our bond even stronger. I know I don't say this a lot (and I probably should) but I love you no matter what. even though I can get really upset just know that I care about you and your well-being. just please take good care of your health! I would hate to see you with physical problems in the future when you're not even that old. there are changes that I wish that would be made on you. but God constantly reminds me there's no such thing as a perfect family. I hope that as I get older, I'll show more compassion and unconditional love towards you. and maybe you can drive me around sometime so get your license!