One of them

In a sea of people, you have your typical popular crowd, the nerds, the emo/scene kids (whatever you like to call them), you name it. I really dislike the fact that there are labels and cliques. I wish everyone would just get along no matter what social status. During musical rehearsals, I can't help but notice this one girl. She's pretty quiet who may not have the best style and not always have a smile on her face. In my head I was hoping she has friends because I felt sorry for her. She's always alone and out of place. I really can't help but notice her. if it bothers me so much, why don't i talk to her? yes, why don't i? small talk goes a long way even though it doesn't do much. I remember a few rehearsals ago, Karr was yelling at her for wearing her clothes underneath her nun costume and told her to go take them off. I swear, ms. karr is going to make someone cry. one of these days. and she looked like she was going to cry. i really have to say, she's strong. she's stronger than someone who needs someone with them all the time and can't stand being alone.

I say this because I was one of them. I used to be one of those girls who felt weak and had no social skills. I was a cry baby and I was pretty well known to be one if people knew me since elementary school and maybe junior high. I praise the Lord for the friends I've made a long the way. that process from being that person to who I am today... i thought that would never happen. an old friend of mine from 4th grade once told me, "don't worry, you'll grow out of it". I never really put any faith to that because it really sounded like an insult to me. I really do take for granted my friends. seriously, you don't know what you have until it's gone. the only time we point things out and notice stuff is when it's gone.

I really notice things easily especially the people around me. I know a lot of faces and most of the time names. and a lot of the times, they don't know me. This is what has been with me almost my whole life. When I had no friends, I would take interest in watching other people in what they do and who were their friends. it's not stalking! if it was stalking, I would be considered to be following everyone. and that isn't the case. people do things, I see it, and i put it to memory. speaking of which, I remember things from elementary school that no one else remembers. yeah this is what having no friends does to you.

Glad to know that I'm not the only one who feels like this.
who feels at some point in their life (hopefully not their whole life) that they don't have a companion. or they feel lonely.

I'm also glad that I have friends and a lot more than how many I used to have.
I'm thankful beyond words.