:] New Year

My new year's resolution? well it most certainly won't be losing weight that's for sure because obviously my weight fluctuates. I lost weight from the end of summer to the start of school and that all went downhill for me ever since thanksgiving. so i kinda sorta fulfilled my resolution. that has to count for something right? sure. i'll make it that way that i did but that wasn't my only resolution, mark my words!

learning a skill and mastering it. and what skill might that be? cooking. i want to make things from scratch. the thing is, my mom won't be around to make me something when i live on my own a few years from now. that's right. this is a step towards my independency. and today, this very day of this new year, i cooked pad thai. my favorite thai dish. ever. if you haven't tried it, you must go to a thai restuarant and order pad thai and if you like hot soup, order tom yung (i think that's how you spell it, but i'm sure that's how it's said). you will fall in love i guarantee. ok so i kind of did some cooking in 2008 and yes i have made pad thai but that was only once. ONCE. so on my second time, it turned out to be a tad bit spicy than usual. but it's still bomb. this time i had no help. my mom just washed the dishes. thanks mom. i'm looking forward to using the kitchen more often, so watch out! so my next dish that doesn't involve noodles? maybe i'll make a filipino dish. adobo perhaps? haha that will be awesome i must say. or maybe my other favorite, sinigang. maybe. it might be too hard for me. i hope i can cook as well as my mother someday. the thing is she had more experience and has done this way before she was in high school. another advantage was that my grandma was SOOOO good at cooking. probably the best and she worked in a restuarant and my mom would help her cook. i think my grandma owned a restuarant. huge brownie points there.

2009. I will get a job. i will work at disneyland;] haha that's the plan. i'll be working as soon as i get my license. or maybe as soon as i graduate. which would be in june. i need money. and im tired of not having money or asking for money. that will be a bigger step for me on getting my independency. I want to be able to know the value of money. what i tend to do when i have cash on me is just spend whatever i have instead of budgeting. i don't even count the change i get back after i purchase something! if i see something that i like and have the money for it, i'll buy. isn't that what people do when they have a lot of money? like hundreds? or if they have a platinum card? yeah i don't have that and that's how i am with my money when i probably only have a few 20's. i'm not that rich. with money, i also want to give tithes to the church. and since i'll be working this year, i have to give 10% of my income to the church. and if i have money with me all the time, i guess now i have to carry a wallet. haha the thing with me, i don't carry a wallet. random fact. ;] i'm a money-in-my-pocket kind of person. i'm going to have to force myself to use one sometime soon.

read and study books in the bible. it's easier said than done. because sometimes i don't have the motivation to read it. i get distracted or busy with homework or even when i don't have anything to do. it's ridiculous. and i can't just read the bible... i also said study. and pray about it. devotion time. i feel distant from God especially this whole winter break. i felt far away from Him. and i need to get on with it. last year's resolution was to have more faith in Him and in myself. i've kept it. it wasn't every single minute of everyday. but i still have it until now. sure i've given up at times but i got back up after falling short. after missing the mark. i'm able to keep on moving forward. so this year, it's just to get to know Him. using the bible more. spending time with Him. i mean i've been doing that last year but it wasn't enough. there's more exploring to do.

goodbye 2008
hello 2009
happy new year once again