Everytime I hear the rain, it makes me want to stay indoors and watch The Notebook and possibly cry. The rain is truly music to my ears. Although I really dislike the rain for making my socks wet and having to dress accordingly because of the cold and wetness. Also I'd have to carry around an umbrella. :]
I want that "Notebook" moment someday. And when I meet that special someone, I'll be sure to tell him. If he's really the love of my life, he'd know that I want something like that. right? I always have a set scenario or story plot to my love life... in my dreams. As a hopeless romantic, that's what happens. Sometimes I get it confused with reality. silly right? It's really hard saving myself for someone. Sure, I won't get hurt and won't experience the heartbreak, but I still get hurt because I long for it. It's never easy. In my past life... as a child... my mind was filled with thoughts of boys. I paid a lot of my attention on some guy I crush on and it comes on strong. Once I fall, I fall pretty hard. That's why I hurt easily. I thank God I'm not the same sensitive shy girl. I was extremely, terribly sensitive. I'm still sensitive and emotional but I can control it a lot better than before. I guess I'm a little bit smarter so I see no point in crying over things like that. I know better. Good things come for those who wait. So maybe if I wait a few more years, that guy God is preparing for me will be who I've been waiting for. does that make any sense? of course he won't be perfect or exactly EXACTLY the man of my dreams, I'll just know when the time comes. my heart is rushing but my mind is telling me to be patient. or rather my conscience is telling me to wait and telling me that "it's not right". I'm so grateful for the love He's providing me. because now i want to use it and show His love to others. Because of His love, I want to live it well and to the fullest. And one day, where I least expect it, that guy... that soulmate will be there. of course it won't be like the movies where it takes 2 hours to get to know the person and then you're together ever after... no. friends first then lovers. the thing is, friendship is forever and it doesn't necessarily mean it's not with your boyfriend or girlfriend. your boyfriend/girlfriend has to be your best friend. that's the very foundation of a relationship. a lot of the time I'll see lust. and that's all that's there. it's not love. because if it's love it wouldn't last for a few months or years... it's until death do us part.
The other day during lunch i was sitting with my friends at our secret (yeah not really) lunch spot and we saw our GLC talk to a couple that's always hanging around by the lockers(ish) making out and no conversation whatsoever. so yeah the GLC broke it up and they were just sitting there staring at the wall doing nothing. it's so funny how there's no talk! because all they do is just make out! I guess that's high school right? or at least high school in the movies. that couple are just kids. so young and too young for serious relationships. me and my friends thought it was pretty funny though. PDA these days. not necessary.
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